Snow.

Okay, apparently we are suppose to get snow all this week. Tomorrow and Wednesday its suppose to snow and rain at the same time. How crazy is that?!?! I am literally about to go out of my mind because I don't want it to snow.

Homecoming week is this week and I have been looking forward to this week in awhile. Since December really. Out of all the weeks in January, somehow this is the perfect week to snow and ice?!?! I think not. Seriously though, why of all weeks? Thats not a cool thing to do.

On one account, I do feel really comfortable today. I feel like I'm in a BIG pink bubble. I have two pairs of pants and tops on today. And I wore my pink and red fuzzy socks on today. Tomorrow is Mis match and crazy sock day. I can do crazy sock day, but I don't know about the whole mis match thing. I don't normally do mis match day at all on Spirit Week. Emily does, but she has more creativity in the woredobe than I do.

Homecoming Week!

Next week is Homecoming week, and its so surreal to me. I love that fact that what we have to wear has to be formal. So looking for a good dress was not a easy task to do. I was so excited to look for one, but Jasper is not a BIG enough place that has a lot of stores to choose from.

So my mom switched my $100 gift card from Wal-Mart to an American Express card of $100. So I can pretty much get anything I wanted. :) I didn't find a dress in Jasper at all. So I went online that next day and went and searched on stores that are around here and went on Dillard's and found a pretty dark brown dress. It's called Hershey. Prefect name. I looked at 2 other dresses, but my mom didn't like them at all. It was worth it though.

Homecoming this next Friday. And Beachless V-Ball is on Wednesday. We also have Spirit Week too!
Monday- Pj Day
Tuesday- Mis match day/ Crazy sock day
Wednesday- Favorite College Shirt or Jersey Day
Thursday- Sweat Suit Day
Friday- Crazy Camo, Burgondy, & Gold Day

I also have a NHS meeting on Monday morning. And hopefully we can help out with Haiti somehow. Because I am about go crazy if I don't find someway to help out. I know God listens to me, but I just don't think my praying is enough. I want to do more. And I think everyone should in someway.

Friday.

I am totally excited for tomorrow! I am going dress shopping for my homecoming dress. I keep saying this until the day of Homecoming, but I still can't believe I got nominated. I love all the girls who got nominated too! I am either friends with them or I use to be but thats okay though. She's still a pretty nice girl, she just doesn't talk to me that much anymore. :(

I am hopefully getting a dark colored dress, but some people said to get a bright orange dress. But I wore a bright color dress to prom last year. And I don't want to tan or put that yucky tanning lotion that is a subistute of tanning either. So maybe a purple or a brown. I think if I get black my dad would think I am really going crazy. And I don't want that.

I stopped on my Musical Collage that I am making in my Drawing class. I don't have anymore magazines to cut out anymore. And I've used all the CD covers that I have out of the box that my other 45 CDs that I have. So now I am doing my portiture drawing. It looks so cool! I don't usually like my drawings, especially of people. Because I don't think it looks like the person that I am drawing, but this one does. I am so happy about it!

Four Day Weekend.

Last week, was our first week back since Christmas break and we started last week out right I think. We went three days last week and then on Wednesday night it started snowing really, really HARD! It came right to us, and Thursday morning I woke up and I had to look at two different channels just to see if we were on a delay or school was cancelled. Guess what? It was cancelled.

Around four o'clock, it was going around on Facebook that school was cancelled on Friday too. Everybody knew before the News Channels did. So sad. Thank god for facebook! Friday was kinda okay, but after Saturday and Sunday came it sucked. My mom had to work that weekend and it snowed. Duh, doesn't mix well. Thats why we didn't go to school on those last two days. She still went to work.

Today, we had a two hour delay. I am praying we have another one of those tomorrow. Because I had a rough last night and I want as much sleep as I possibly can get. My back hurt the whole night. I now have two pilliows now that I sleep with and neither one were comfortable enough for me. Nothing wanted to work right with me last night. So lets just hope I get some sleep tonight. I am crossing my Neon-Orange toes tonight for getting some much needed sleep. :)

I Needed To Blog. :)

Well, first thing's first. Merry Christmas to everybody that reads this. I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings about this Christmas day. Because today and yesterday I just kept getting this feeling something's not right, and I have been feeling very peaceful about myself and with other people around me.

Yesterday, was Christmas Eve, and I had so much fun. My mom made Christmas cookies and Chocolate Chip Cookies. And my sister was actually nice to me and everybody else. Wednesday I went to my Nana's because Em had a basketball game to go cheer at. And my parents went shopping again. So I went to my Nana's house and spent the evening talking about Scholarships, my career of choice, boys, dreams, and babies. Everything but the last one surprised my nana because we never had a talk about babies like we did. The dreams and baby kind of went together actually.

The last couple of nights, all of the dreams I've had. We're about me with a child. More of the dreams have been baby boys instead of girls. With these dreams I am still going to college and doing what I wanted to do as a career. But me and my nana were talking and we both kind of decided that God may be giving me a decision here. Which one do I want more? Family? Or career? If it was up to me, it would be both. But God works wonders though.

One dream I did have though, I tend to keep having at night. This is how it goes. My friend and her mom were going to go to a concert in Indinaposis and we go to see it and I have the time of my life, but after its over and we were going to leave the stadium these big guys come up to us and say that, "the guys of the band want to meet you." Which they're talking about me and of course we go. And we leave to go meet these guys and one is really, really drunk and he can't seem to understand that no means no. And the next thing I know I am four months pregnant. How about that for a dream?

Myself in my dream is very confident that she can do this and have a baby, have a career, and be handicapped at the same time. So she keeps the baby, because if that WAS me, I would keep the baby. I have family who were adopted and it took them forever to see the rest of their family, so thats what I would do. Anyways, she finds out its a boy. And she decides that his name will be Layton Matthew. And being that I have had Scoliosis the same feelings of how can I get drugs to calm down the pain without doing something wrong to my back? So I had no drugs at all. I had no boyfriend just my family and my best friend. And my son was born.

Lately I have thought a lot more of baby names then anything else. In my notepad in my phone I have four names that I have come up with just because of these dreams. I have Dante Benjamin, Layton Matthew, Sophia Marie, and Jaelyn Ruth.

Finals Week!

This week is final's week. And it's also the last week of the first semester of my last year here in high school. It seems so bittersweet, but then again it seems so good to almost be done with all of the high school drama, bad friendships, people who don't seem to care where you want to go. High school has really changed me. I remember when I was a freshman I really wanted to go back to middle school, but now I just want to go back to Elementary school.

Trusting people has been a big thing for me. Elementary I had one aide, and I had her until she retired when I started fifth grade. I was sad because she was the only one that knew me and understood me, and when I started fifth grade not only did I have to have surgeries, but I gained a bad aide. The only people who liked her were my "friends" and it was because she was younger. After when I graduated from Elementary, I was scared because I didn't know who would want to be friends with me. And then I learned that they're were NICE people in the older grades before me.

My "friends" in Elementary school, were leaving me as I left Elementary life before me. They were my friends, but some lied to gain my trust. I thought I was vurunable and weak because I was handicapped. I thought I would never become something. During my middle school years, I became very depressed. Half the time I let it show and the rest I never did, but my family knew I was. By my seventh grade year came my mom began school at VU for Nursing. And I hated it. Because I knew my dad would be the one to take care of me and Emily.

When my mom began school, I felt really lonely. I know I began to trust a lot of fake people and started believeing every word they said rather believeing in my own words. Music became more than a hobby for me. I began singing songs after my surgeries, I thought it was very werid that my lungs seemed stronger than ever. Avril Lavigne became my favorite Rockstar and still kind of is. Me and my roommate at Shriner's Shelby had a thing were every trip we went to we sang her songs. Being at Shriner's showed me that they were more kids like me.

When I started eighth grade, I was already crying from the depression and losing my mind from feeling unwanted. I joined 8th Grade Swing Choir and loved it! I hated the people that were in there but I loved singing. After that I started high school. Freshman actually wasn't too bad, if you can get past the flaws between boys. Then it was okay. The boys were nice for once. They would open doors for you, and then everybody else followed. Football became my thing. I loved the football team! The players were good looking and I was actually getting out of the house to go to games. Then I realized something I wanted to do POWDER PUFF FOOTBALL!

Holy Cow!

I have never wanted something so bad in my life, then a reason to win something because many people love you for what you are then what they see in you. I am nominated in the running for Winter Homecoming and its werid! Its sooooo cool! I am looking at dresses online. Like on Macy's and Sears. The really cheap dresses is what I'm going for and something purple too! As long as its purple and it has straps we're good. Thank you for the ones that voted for me, you guys are great!

Been Thinking Again.

I am going out of my mind. I need more money to spend on buying Christmas presents for my family and friends. I've got my nana and my dad covered. They're getting candles. My cousin is getting a pair of (blank) but I don't know which to give to her. On her birthday or Christmas. I think I should go to Evansville or somewhere and get stuff, but I don't know what they would want. I've never done this before. So I'm a little new at this.

This is my Christmas Wish List:

1.) A new cell phone.
2.) A new stereo or TV would be nice.
3.) I want some boots, not cowboy boots, but like Uggs.
4.) I want Guitar Earrings, that I saw at Walmart.
5.) I want some earrings.
6.) Lotion.
7.) A laptop.
8.) I want Linkin Park's DVD/CD of their concert at Milton Keyes. :)
9.) I want some new clothes.
10.) An iTunes music card.
11.) More fuzzy socks.
12.) Another purse.
13.) My scholarship stuff to be done.
14.) Anything that's Linkin Park, would be nice too! :))

Another Stressful Day.

Monday started off this so nice... NOT! The one time I don't have a NHS meeting on a Monday morning, my bus never comes to pick me up. Why me?? My dad had to take me in, and I felt like crap the rest of the day. Then when I got home, my mom wanted to start an aguement with me about it.

Tuesday, came with another stressful day. My schedule for second semester was being changed. I had a class that I didn't want, but the consolar put me in it. And she wanted me to come up to talk to her later that day and I told three people I was literally on the eadge on my chair because I was so mad. But now, its well. I have classes that I want to take and that one I have no chioce.

Today, yeah well don't ask!!!
:)